How to Jumpstart Motivation
Alone here, possibly the first day in four months that at times felt like a black-hole forever. My cat's on my lap, eager for me to court the muse and get back to work. But I feel like I've forgotten what my work is, maybe even why I have set up my life to be focused on doing this. Why is it always so hard? With all the work of the past seven years, by now I should be over the hurdle of how to get started, able to conquer my sloth and entropy and know how to buckle down and focus. An artist friend in Baltimore said she too loses her way between projects, between shows. Her big thing is diving into the work, and when that's going well, that's what matters, what brings her back to the studio, the canvas. Why do I feel like I have to clean the garage, the closet, and the guest room before I can have the luxury of doing that? I've spent months tiptoeing around my own routine in my own house, aware of another person and not wanting to what? show my true colors? blast Mozart's Magic Flute to the rafters while he slept? My issues with my routine, my problems are so often my own making. I wonder how many other artists and writers continually struggle with that.
